I Don't Know How To Feel Anymore
CHAPTER 6: DISCONNECT ichigonya CHAPTER 6: DISCONNECT ichigonya

I Don't Know How To Feel Anymore

 Dissociation leads me to the feeling of emptiness very often. People with BPD experience a chronic feeling of "emptiness", as if something is missing within themselves, a part of their soul is lost, and all you have left is the hollow empty feeling of a shell. This is a common struggle for myself, too, even without dissociation. But dissociation makes it easily ten times worse.

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My Soul Is An Infinite Pit Of Emptiness
CHAPTER 2: BLADE ichigonya CHAPTER 2: BLADE ichigonya

My Soul Is An Infinite Pit Of Emptiness

 Last summer, I spent over a month on the psychiatric ward. I was acutely suicidal, I had planned everything for the moment I was going to kill myself. The month I spent in the hospital gave me a lot of answers to my situation, and the most important one of them all was a name for everything that was wrong with me. 

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