Your Skin, Our Guidelines
It didn’t take long for me to start having problems with the social media platforms I was posting my art on. During the first few months of working on the project, I was struggling immensely with posting and KEEPING my illustrations up on Instagram, because of one specific thing.
Community Guidelines.
My Body; A Broken Temple
I find it truly fascinating how psychological trauma can manifest itself in physical symptoms. How something that damaged the development of my personality can lead to chronic pain, muscle spasms, convulsions, and soreness. Sometimes I find myself questioning whether this is truly all in my head, if the things people did to me as a child were something more than what I am currently able to remember. Because I struggle to believe that the things I went through could truly result in something like this. How could a bunch of kids doing those things later cause me to develop massive issues with my muscles and joints? But then I have to remind myself that all this questioning is nothing more than a result of poor and very lacking education on the way psychological trauma works, how it alters your brain, and how your body will carry that damage within itself until the day your heart ceases to beat.
And My Scars Are The Only Thing You Will Ever See
I've already written about that one very frustrating appointment I had with my psychologist a bit before Christmas. There were a lot of things that bothered me in that conversation, but one of them was noticeably bigger than the rest. I could not stop thinking about the way my psychologist approached the entire issue: making me feel responsible for my own reckless behavior and thus harming the people around me more than myself. I think at the very core of this discussion was the idea that I was doing this to myself because I was making that conscious decision to harm myself instead of doing something productive. That it was my responsibility, my fault even if you will, that I was cutting my arms into shreds.